Sunday Symphony

Shakespeare told us in Twelfth Night: 

If music be the food of love, play on;
Give me excess of it, that surfeiting,
The appetite may sicken, and so die.

Music is life to me. I've always got some tune or other playing on some device in the house. While silence is its own meditation, to me music gives me the space to breathe, to allow the world to resonate, giving me time & energy to take it all in. It soothes me, makes me think, or takes me away to distant memories. Thy Will Be done by Hillary Scott & Family - been listening to this song since it was first released 7 years ago. And it always makes me stop whatever I'm doing - and listen to the words. The soaring melody. The desperation of someone trying to make sense of the world around them, where they exist in moments that take their breath away in shock & pain. It's hard to count it all joy Distracted by the noise Just trying to make sense Of all your promises Sometimes I gotta stop Remember that you're God And I am not This song got me thru some rough times. Those moments when I think I'm totally alone, that no one sees or hears me, that everything is up to me and I can't stand up under the weight of the burdens I carry. ===> I carry. Ego - makes us think we can do it all, have it all, handle it all. We all come into the world with that annoying item fully intact. Ego. And it leads us down paths and into situations we don't need to participate in. But our ego - our free will - doesn't let go easily. And we need to let go. The desperation I hear in Thy Will Be Done is from someone who needs to let go - and can't find their way to do it. And yet, when they finally do let go... Thy will be done Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is Thy will be done I've been there. We all have. Those moments when we feel like our heart might break into a million pieces, or our very soul might shatter at the next noise or breath, or our bodies are going to collapse under the weight of what we believe we carry alone. If only we could just - turn around and see behind us: I know you see me I know you hear me, Lord God is there. Always. In our darkest moments - when we feel we are being torn apart - he is there. Just waiting for us to turn around.  It's even in the Bible... The Lord looks from heaven; He sees all the sons of men. From the place of His dwelling, He looks on all the inhabitants of the earth; He fashions their hearts individually; He considers all their works Bible verse from Bible Gateway.